I suddenly have the urge to be lost from this place.
This place that people can find me.
Don’t get me wrong.
I don’t mean killing myself.
This place doesn’t mean this world.
Like, gone to another nation?
To a place nobody knows me.
Is that possible?
Yes, nothing is impossible.
But, will I or can I make it happen?
Hmm…
Let me rest for a while first.
Though I know I have been resting so much.
I’ve got so much rest physically.
Yet, no peace.
I haven’t got the peace in my mind.
I read through my previous blog entries.
Other than emo posts, they were still emo posts.
Hate that fact.
But that’s the fact.
I’ve gotta do something.
Before I really lost myself.
Another emo post?
No, at least my mind is at work now.
Filed under: Uncategorized on November 19th, 2009 | 4 Comments »
I’ve spent my time in bed the whole day today yesterday.
There’s a heaty discussion among the psychos regarding our internship report in emails and I can’t seem to comprehend at all! It’s like I’m reading but not decoding =.=’’’
Whenever I sit in front of the laptop, my mind keeps telling me ‘eh, you’re sick! That’s the sign of you needing rest! Rest rest and rest!’
And whenever I’m on the bed and still with consciousness, my mind keeps telling me, ‘Project 2! Project 2! There’s one more big part in project 2 and your INTERNSHIP REPORT is gonna due in less than 2 weeks!’
FML
Yeap, I’m down with fever and sorethroat. And no, don’t ask me to go see doctor ish!
Filed under: Uncategorized on November 18th, 2009 | No Comments »
I am… slowly… losing myself, again.
Don’t talk to me.
Filed under: Uncategorized on November 14th, 2009 | No Comments »
我想念老妈。。。
我想念我姐。。。
我想念侄儿。。。
来临 的年尾假期，我该回家吗？
很想。。。很想回家。。。
这种时刻，该理智吗？
人家真的很想回家的说。。。
还剩四个钟就得准备去上班了。。。可是，我还是很想家。。。
无人可撒娇，悲哀。:’(
Filed under: Uncategorized on November 10th, 2009 | No Comments »
Imagine you’re a baby in a woman’s womb.
One unfortunate day, your mother and father get into a car accident.
Your father is thrown out from the car, rushed to the hospital immediately, unsure if he could be saved.
Your mother is dead on the spot and you as a baby in the womb, can actually be saved.
Given the choice, would you like to be saved?
Update (22 Nov, 12.53am)
For me, the answer is a ‘no’. (guess many of u would haf known this answer d by knowing ycfoo in real life =.=)
I neva think that further, about how being survive could create social probs to the society or to remind the living people of the accident and the death.
My logic is simple: I know this world is not all about sadness and cruelty. There are some limelight here and there. Just that, I still think that the limelight is not worth for one (at least me) to go through the cruelty.
If one has to make the life-death decision while we’re already in life, already had some memories with some people, the decision will definitely be a hard one. Because, humans have obligations and emotions.
So, given the choice, while in stated extreme situation, I would rather not come to this world.
Haha… talk so much… not like we human beings have control of this. Hmm… was just wondering.
Filed under: Uncategorized on November 7th, 2009 | 5 Comments »
事业、亲情、友情、爱情；哪个，你摆在第一位？
无论你把哪个放在第一；它们，总是问题的根源。
太多的人事物，让我很无奈。
累了，心很累了。
累得让我。。。捉摸不到自己。
迷失了。
努力过，失败了。
无法自己。
会做出什么，不晓得。
只知道，我无法自己了。
也不想让自己那么不堪，那么痛苦了。
真的不想了。。。
Filed under: Uncategorized on October 30th, 2009 | No Comments »
Seriously, kill me using a very sharp knife if you want. Really.
Don’t torture me by using that blunt knife…
Cannot d… I cannot d… !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Filed under: Uncategorized on October 26th, 2009 | 8 Comments »
I can no longer stand it.
Decision made: No outings at all for this week.
I’m gonna stay home only except working time.
Update at 11.05am:
me: feel like going genting
yl: who just said that no more outing?
me: *thinking hard who
……………..
me: eh! why are you reading my blog at work?!
Filed under: Uncategorized on October 26th, 2009 | 6 Comments »
天啊～鞭炮本来就是华人的传统嘛，怎么印度人也那么爱啊？
鞭炮，照理不在ｄｅｐａｖａｌｉ时出现的啊！
不是不爱鞭炮。事实上，我爱极了！
就是因为太爱，在这异乡听到鞭炮会让我心痛啊！
呼呼。。。鞭炮声，会让我想起农历新年；农历新年，就会让我想起家啦！
随着鞭炮而想起的烟花，更是让人心痛。
每响一次，我的心就绞痛一次。
唉。。。就别折磨我了嘛～～～
Filed under: Uncategorized on October 19th, 2009 | No Comments »
玩乐器的男生，很帅！
赫赫。。。也不是全都帅啦。。。
是那种，很会玩，而又不做作的。:)
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工作的缘故，
脑，总是不停的在运作；
思绪，也在不停的运转。
有很多，想在这分享。
想想，还是不了。
担心，引起误会，
害怕，惹来麻烦呢！
哈！要写，就得花很长的时间，确保我所写的不会引起不必要的争论。
现在，没那心思呢！
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明天又星期一了。 
不是不爱工作。
只是，精疲力尽呢！
Filed under: Uncategorized on October 18th, 2009 | No Comments »