I.HAVE.TO.LEAVE.THIS.PLACE

change of environment. I need.

I’m looking for student exchange program or some kind.
Aware of any?

drugs drugs drugs drugs….

I’ve been reading so much on drugs that I feel like gulping them all in!

Best way of understanding drugs, no?

Somemore somemore, after gulping them all in, I sure will be abnormal in one way or another.

Then right… Don’t Need to Read!

Hoho… nobody is gonna expect me to read and produce work!

Mukakkaka…!!!!

So, right… I decide to instill some colors here~

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Nah, colors!

Is that possible?
Yes, nothing is impossible.
But, will I or can I make it happen?

Hmm…
Let me rest for a while first.
Though I know I have been resting so much.
I’ve got so much rest physically.
Yet, no peace.
I haven’t got the peace in my mind.

I read through my previous blog entries.
Other than emo posts, they were still emo posts.
Hate that fact.
But that’s the fact.

I’ve gotta do something.
Before I really lost myself.

Another emo post?
No, at least my mind is at work now.

There’s a heaty discussion among the psychos regarding our internship report in emails and I can’t seem to comprehend at all! It’s like I’m reading but not decoding =.=’’’

Whenever I sit in front of the laptop, my mind keeps telling me ‘eh, you’re sick! That’s the sign of you needing rest! Rest rest and rest!’

And whenever I’m on the bed and still with consciousness, my mind keeps telling me, ‘Project 2! Project 2! There’s one more big part in project 2 and your INTERNSHIP REPORT is gonna due in less than 2 weeks!’

FML

Yeap, I’m down with fever and sorethroat. And no, don’t ask me to go see doctor ish!

我想念我姐。。。

我想念侄儿。。。

来临 的年尾假期，我该回家吗？

很想。。。很想回家。。。

这种时刻，该理智吗？

人家真的很想回家的说。。。

还剩四个钟就得准备去上班了。。。可是，我还是很想家。。。

无人可撒娇，悲哀。:’(

Update (22 Nov, 12.53am)

For me, the answer is a ‘no’. (guess many of u would haf known this answer d by knowing ycfoo in real life =.=)
I neva think that further, about how being survive could create social probs to the society or to remind the living people of the accident and the death.

My logic is simple: I know this world is not all about sadness and cruelty. There are some limelight here and there. Just that, I still think that the limelight is not worth for one (at least me) to go through the cruelty.

If one has to make the life-death decision while we’re already in life, already had some memories with some people, the decision will definitely be a hard one. Because, humans have obligations and emotions.

So, given the choice, while in stated extreme situation, I would rather not come to this world.

Haha… talk so much… not like we human beings have control of this. Hmm… was just wondering.

太多的人事物，让我很无奈。
累了，心很累了。
累得让我。。。捉摸不到自己。
迷失了。

努力过，失败了。
无法自己。
会做出什么，不晓得。

只知道，我无法自己了。
也不想让自己那么不堪，那么痛苦了。
真的不想了。。。

Don’t torture me by using that blunt knife…

Cannot d… I cannot d… !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!