y.de.chu’s

It’s during period approaching exam that I ruminate lots about self and things surrounding me.
At this very moment, I feel that I’m so useless.

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 28th, 2009 | 2 Comments »

My heart muscles twitched so hard while I caught a glimpse outside of the window. I turned to the clock and it said, ‘7.48pm’. I paused and thought about what I was doing while it’s already so dark outside. I was reading someone’s blog. And I haven’t touched any notes or books or journals today. [...]

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 27th, 2009 | 2 Comments »

I received a bubble message that sounds like this: “chuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchuchu…”
Then I found her online… and asked if she missed me too much…

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 26th, 2009 | No Comments »

At war time like this, I allow self to surf net for the whole afternoon.
At war time like this, I allow self to “lepak” in the shopping mall.
At war time like this, I allow self spending time in the kitchen preparing nice meal.
At war time like this, I allow self to sleep 10 hours per [...]

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 26th, 2009 | 6 Comments »

I just feel like hiding self in the bed… never ever need to open the eyes…
That’s irresponsible, I  know.

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 24th, 2009 | No Comments »

After the meet during cny, I know u’ll no longer be in my buddy list.
After the misunderstanding, I still hold some hope because ‘misunderstanding’ will always be misunderstanding. Just clear the misunderstanding, then we’ll continue our friendship. But it seems I was too naïve to perceive that as a misunderstanding. You tried to talk about [...]

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 22nd, 2009 | 4 Comments »

No further descriptions needed, I suppose.
Go here for version 1

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 22nd, 2009 | 2 Comments »

Homesick again… ><
When this happens, I force self to sleep even though I’m not sleepy hoping to avoid self from thinking about home…
But… sigh… this is so time wasting… and… I still think about home when I finally have to still wake up. Ishhh… I hate this feeling.
Miss home miss home miss home miss [...]

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 17th, 2009 | No Comments »

Duh… I’ve put in so much efforts to put up this conversation. Something’s wrong with either wordpress or the host lar, couldn’t upload pictures for days.
So… the above… the consequences of taking psychology course in SyUC.

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 16th, 2009 | 5 Comments »

The chance is here, it’s right in front of me.
Yet… I’m scared.
I’m unsure if I can make it.
I’m really scared.
 
The first thing I thought of was ‘what if I didn’t perform well?’ instead of ‘yeah, I’ve got the chance finally!’ This is pathetic, no? Sigh…
 
I hate this.
Why am I so lousy?
Why don’t I trust [...]

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 12th, 2009 | No Comments »